Shockingly, at the same time Williams was starring in The Wire as a criminal, he was one in real life — in Newark, New Jersey, Williams was a drug abuser, and by his own admission was “in scary places with scary people” surrounded by violent, drug-addicted felons.
Williams admits that it was a lifestyle that could have lead to the end of his career or worse. He reveals, “I was playing with fire. It was just a matter of time before I got caught and my business ended up on the cover of a tabloid or I went to jail or, worse, I ended up dead. When I look back on it now, I don’t know how I didn’t end up in a body bag.”
His drug habits were so secret that even his closest friends couldn’t stop him from getting high. He explains, “Eventually, I got so sick and tired of this charade. No one who was in my circle, who knew me as Mike, was allowing me to get high. I had to slip away to do drugs. I had to hide it. I’d be gone for days at a time. I was lonely in that part of my life. I was broke, broken and beat up. Exhausted. Empty. I finally said, ‘I can’t do this no more.’ I didn’t want to end up dead.”
His personal life became so hellish that Williams realized that he rather be Omar Little, his character on The Wire, than himself. He says, “I suffered from a huge identity crisis. People say they love the characters I’ve chosen in my career. But I didn’t choose anything. I just happened to be working and these were offered to me. But when I look at the characters, I got to exorcise my demons, a lot. In the end, I was more comfortable with Omar’s skin than my own. That was a problem… I have to be honest, though, playing Omar was a rush. The response I was getting from people on the street was gratifying. He was my Superman suit, and I had no problem with that. He gave me better street cred than Mike Williams would ever get.”
Despite the fact that Williams’ addictions never caused him legal trouble or forced him to miss work, he felt compelled to open up about his former lifestyle. He confesses, “I thought, ‘Why me? Why did I get spared?’ I should’ve been dead. I have the scars. I’ve stuck my head in the lion’s mouth. Obviously, God saved me for a purpose. So, I decided to get clean and then come clean. I’m hoping I can reach that one person.” Though he could have kept this secret buried, he hopes that by coming forward he can inspire others to clean up as well.